Wednesday, January 26, 2011

End of January

It's been good then bad then better then worse and now its just "meh".  One of my roommates ditched out on me with a weeks notice. Grrr.  Brian is still here though and I also have a friend emergency crashing at my place after her and her guy split. If she gets the job she's going for then she will probably become the new roommate. If not then she's moving up north to stay with fam or in with someone who can afford to let her stay rent free, as is I could only offer her a month.  I feel bad but there's not much else I can do. I can't afford it. I need paying roommates.

Things with me and Bill have deteriorated significantly. We get along for a bit and then it goes all to hell. I still love him, I miss him but there is no hope of reconciliation. When it's all said and done no matter how bad it gets between us I want only good and happy things for him. I have yet to file for divorce, I don't have the money for a lawyer (I'd rather just do it ourselves) but Im trying to save up. Maybe I will have enough after taxes. Im still kinda lost on this and I still get depressed a lot about the whole thing.

One thing that has helped is the planning of the gardens. They are a mess at the moment. I did a piss poor job of putting it to bed. One thing is for sure I want black cloth or paper to lay down, concrete blocks and mulch. Oh and a fence I must have a fence this year. Lots of plans to travel short trips and long. Short trips like going to see Bakers Creek Seed Company just over in Missouri, a trip over to Ohio and maybe Kentucky.  The bigger ones like Ragnarok will be interesting to try to swing this year. But Im up for the challenge. What are you guys doing to pass this damnable cold weather?